Wednesday, March 25, 2009 4:14 PM
Him....
Yesterday night and today’s early in morning, I’m infuriated with Alan.
Sometime I really don’t understand…perhaps girls are too sensitive towards their love’s one had done to them..every actions every words.. everything they had done for us, we – girls for sure will kept in heart or will kept in mind as a sweet memories….but my Alan wasn’t like this…he doesn’t even care about my feelings….Hello…I mean..where got a girl like their own bf care so much with outsider’s feeling rather than his own Gf right? …I’ve be irritated of this feeling for few months since Alan go back to school…
I wish ..should says how much I wish he can be initiative to plan some “surprise” for me like buy something or cook my favorite food, bring me go for shopping or watch movie or something which doesn’t spend any money..but Alan wasn’t like this all along is Me who plan the everything…..He always says “ You decide lor, me anything.”Seriously I feel so bored…no entertainment at all no nothing…I feel so meaningless
Recently, I found out that he had break his promises to me – No more Drinking. I feel so hurt that he had hide this from me again until I find out and then he admit it. Asking him not to go some where with “somebody” and yet he can reply me says “ But I had promise her!”…sometime I really do not understand is that “SHE” important or “Me” important…they are so close until people thought they are couples..I feel so ashamed (like I’m not a good gf) and I had a impression of giving up this relationship sometimes in worse to worse case….Alan might fall in love with somebody else..why not he have his own choice…everyday not even msg him more than 1 time or not even msg him at all when I come home not even see him more than 3 hours (Mon to Thurs only)..after dinner not even talk to him more than 20 words…he can sit in front of his laptop using his msn chatting with that “somebody”…Me just like a fool watching at them sweet talk this and that..encourage this and that…I feel myself like invisible and don’t know what to do sometime until never talk to him at all..got BF treat his own “GF” like that meh? ..the Worst thing is that when I ask him to do a very Simple thing and he can’t do for me…I feel so disappointed..when that somebody asking Alan to do something , everything “Yes Yes Yes okokok” no objection at all…when it turns to me always giving me excuses or forgetful...what the hell is this sometime I don’t know that somebody is she is the GF or I’m the GF…I feel so down until don’t know how to describe ..what can I say somemore his mind is full of that “somebody”….what I can tell u guy is that “Please respect your love’s one. Sometime you think is nothing but for us is like being hurt. If you really do love her you will do whatever she ask for it.”..when you love someone is not this type of Love…not just sweet talk to the Gf..do something and proof it…Alan I feel disappointed on you.
